A little history first, my first child was a great pregnancy no dramas or hassles pretty much smooth sailing. When he was 3 we started trying for our 2nd. I suffered 4 miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy which resulted in the loss of 1 tube and I nearly died. With the help of an amazing OB we had our beautiful daughter who has just turned 2 (my son is 10 daughter is 2). The pregnancy with her was a nightmare! Numerous hormone medications during the fist 15 weeks which included having to give myself 2 injections a week, I then had gestational diabetes for the last 15 weeks and was on insulin injections twice a day. None of this was too bad it was the stressful nature of the whole pregnancy. I hated it, I was constantly worried that I was going to lose her even on the way to the hospital to have her I was crying with fear. I have also been on a low dose of antidepressants since she was 6 months old due to post natal depression. I want to ask the sisterhood for help as I feel I'm not finished, I feel like I would like another baby. I know I have 2 healthy beautiful children but I feel like something is missing, I always dreamed of having 3 children. My issue is I am terrified of having to go through another pregnancy like the one with my daughter. The stress, the roller coaster of emotions it scares me and is the only thing from stopping me from going ahead. The medications etc will be required again but that isn't an issue it's the emotional stress that I'm not sure I can handle. Will it be different because I will no doubt have to continue on my antidepressants? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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