The truth behind parenting.

Everyone tells you, "it's hard but it's worth it" yes that's completely true, I wouldn't change my children for the world, but there is so much that your friends, family, strangers, doctors and the books don't tell you. Everyone says it's hard, but they don't say why. The truth is, parenting can fucking suck. Always having to put little people before yourself is exhausting. People don't tell you "hey, have you thought about what complications their could be?" "The chances your child may have a disability" they tell you children have tantrums but what they didn't tell you is, "the tantrum and they tantrum some more to the point you just want to cry because you question every god damn thing you do!" They don't tell you that some days are so much harder then others. They don't tell you that disciplining feels pointless most the time because they are back at it 5 minutes later. They don't tell you how difficult it is when it doesn't work out with the father, they don't tell you how hard is is to leave a person you love to keep the little people you love safe. They don't tell you how hard it is when your partner and yourself come about something with parenting that you both have complete different views on. They don't tell you that your going to cry, your going to cry over the big things and the little
Things. They don't tell you that your child only has to do something so small for it to break your heart. They don't tell you that some days, you wake up impatient for the day to end so you can put them back to bed. They don't tell you how exhausting it is trying to feed them when they just don't want what's on offer, so you don't let them win by giving them something else but then feel like worlds worse mum because they haven't ate. I love my children, and I wear my title of mum with pride, but some days, some days just crush you. People don't tell you about all the real shit in parenting, they tell you what you wanna hear. So next time someone asks "what's it like!?" Tell them something different, tell them "it's hard, it's worth it, but some days, your gunna feel completely broken" or, "some days your going to wish you could just be in bed all day" tell them something worth while. I could have been told this and still had the same outcome,
I'd have still had my kids but I would not have felt alone with my feelings some days, no one tells you how hard it really is so we all walk around thinking every has it together when the truth is, as mothers we are all drowning. No one told me that along the way, if forget who I was, who I am, not just mum, the person I was and
Still can be whilst having children! But they don't tell you a lot of the good things either, they don't tell you about the cheeky smile you have to hide when they are being so naughty but so funny, or how amazing it feels when they come up and tell you they love you, or when they crawl onto your lap and fall asleep and at that moment, everything is perfect, or the feeling when they suddenly click and understand
Something that you have been trying to teach them for so long, or how, you cry over the good things just as much, if not more then the bad, or how some nights, you let them sleep in your bed because the day just went too fast, they just grow too fast. They don't tell you the truth behind parenting.
I love my children, and I love being a mum. But it's fucking hard. Thanks for reading!