A simple mock letter to help the healing process... Just wanting to share in hope to show other women they are not alone!

A letter to my sons Father,

Your Mother - You are killing your mother, slowly but surely every single day, every single poor decision, you are killing her. She loves you too much to lose you so she is doing what she sees fit to protect, love and care for you. You have changed your mother more than you will ever realise. Because of you, she no longer identifies wrong from right, she sees you and only you. She does not see the horrible things that you project. She does not see how broken you are. She does not see that you are swiftly wasting your life away. I pray for your Mother, not daily, but often enough. Seeing your relationship with her is motivation for me to raise my son to be a sensitive, empathetic, caring, hard working and responsible man.

Your ex and future partners - you are killing parts of their souls, you need to know this and learn to understand this. You waltz into women's lives with your kind smile, wonderful stories and promises only to unravel a whole new world of soul destroying abuse. Why? Do you know how hard it is to rebuild a part of your lost soul? I'm not sure you do. Hopefully one day you are able to rebuild the little lost soul that exists inside of you. Until then, you need to face your demons and be alone. It is not ok to go around destroying women.

Your sons mother - you broke her, you broke me. Into a million pieces. Time and time again I put aside all of the horrible things you have done to me and I support your relationship with our son. That little boy is my whole entire world, not a moment passed since the day he was a tiny jellybean on an ultrasound, that he is not my number one priority. He is my life, and that is a life that i love. You did what no person should ever do to a mother. You took my baby. You took him and held him from his mother. For what? To get back at me for leaving you? You took my whole entire world, and played mind games, put your own child at risk, and made a mother believe that her child was gone. You will never have an understanding of what that feels like but know this, I lost a part of myself that day. I blame myself, every single day for trusting you. I blame myself for allowing my son to be in a situation where he was at risk. I will carry this on my shoulders for the rest of my life. But also know, I am stronger and more fierce because of you. I survived the most horrific trauma and I am, every day, stronger because of this.

Your son - you are letting him down. Everyday you let him down by every poor choice you make. I only have to say your name and his whole entire face lights up, yet you continue to make poor life choices with him not even registering on your priority list. Like your mother and partners, you fill him with wonderful stories and ideas about who you are and what you can bring to his life. Do you realise he is growing every day, smarter, smarter than you will ever be. He will soon be of an age where he is aware of you and your stories, and that day he will feel his first heartbreak. You will break his heart. I work hard every single day to protect him and slowly but surely you are unravelling all of my hard work. Why? Because your addiction to your drug is more important? Your self confidence issues are too hard to face? Because of Your lack of secure attachment as a child? Because of the trauma you have faced in your lifetime? None of these reasons are good enough to outweigh your son. He is the kindest, most charismatic, fun loving being that has walked this earth. How is he not good enough?

You - you once were kind, quiet, giving and caring. That you no longer exists - you are slowly killing yourself. I am not sad for you. You have had chance after chance, people have given their everything to help you. You are the reason you are where you are today, the sooner you realise this the sooner you will become a better son, a better partner and ultimately a better Father.

Learn quickly from your mistakes, and start to rebuild your soul before you lose everything.

Yours sincerely,
The strong, fierce protector of your Son.