TRIGGER..attempted suicide of ex partner
Long story short after a very very heavy drinking session my ex partner attempted to hang himself in my home in front of me
I was able to get emergency services here quickly and he was physically okay and taken to hospital..but released later that night
But I can’t unsee it...I have never been so frightened in my life
He says he is now getting help..I have cut direct communication with him because I cannot forgive him for putting me through that..he has stated since he wasn’t serious at the time..he has also stated he was
My question is has anybody else gone through this...how do you get past it? I can’t close my eyes cos that’s all I see!
It’s affected how I function..my brain is racing my emotions are a roller coaster I feel like I’m grieving
I am so hurt and feel broken but not sure if that’s a reasonable response..
Just looking for ways to cope and go forward
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Sounds like you have PTSD which is serious.
Please get a referral from your GP to see a psychologist. This has to be nipped in the butt before it gets worse.
You need to see a psychologist ASAP. Time to speak to your GP. I’m sorry you had to go through that.
Yoi meed t o seek professional help. Womt be a cure all quick fix. What you are feeling is totally normal. Bless you. Alcohol and drugs this is what it does
As many have said. You have experienced a trauma. You witnessed something horrific involving a person you care about.
You seem to be having flashbacks of sorts. If it is impacting your daily life then it's time to seek some help.
Look up PTSD for some info and consider getting a mental health care plan from the gp and finding a suitable psychologist to help you work through what you've experienced.
EMDR is a very successful therapy for PTSD.
I'm very sorry this has happened to you and please be kind to yourself xx
My daughter took an overdose five years ago when she was 16. She survived it but I still to this day don’t think she has any idea what it did to my husband and I.
We cried every night for months but we also did a lot of talking. We reached out to friends and family for support and that’s what I encourage you to do. You definitely need to speak to someone to process your feelings.
Sadly this is not my only experience.
The week before Christmas one of my best friends called me in the middle of the night because she had cut her wrists, she is ok but finding her covered in blood is something that is going to take me a while to work through.
Please don’t be afraid to ask for help, you have been through a very traumatic experience xxx
I had a similar experience aswell. An old bf of mine use to pull the suicide card if I ever tried to leave the relationship. One night to avoid an argument he had instigated he sliced himself open I'm front of me. One of the most horrible things I've ever experienced. The worst part was having someone tell me he did it because of me. 6 years later it's only just started to affect me hard and fast. I wish you luck with moving forward xx
My ex-husband did the same thing and I had to pull him down off the cupboard he was hanging from. He was ok and he was more interested in trying to scare me than hurt himself but it went too far. I then had to go to work 10 minutes after and have that running through my mind constantly. I've been diagnosed with PTSD from that relationship that included many other instances of sexual, physical and mental abuse. Sounds like you have the same thing. Talking to a counsellor was very helpful. It makes such a difference getting everything off your chest. Time will also help to ease some of the pain.