Im at my lowest. I havnt been this low in a very long time
Im embarrassed to talk about it. But I've started self harming again. Ive just moved a long way away from my friends and family. Ive said goodbye to so much. I have a child with ADHD full time. Im exhausted. I cant find work. Im just so down.
Ive tried medication before over the years. I've been on them all. I hate them
Ive recently had some medical issues and its raising my past eating disorder to come up. Im scared. I feel exhausting making dinner for my child is a lot. Figuring out how to get out of bed in the mornings is alot
I dont know what to do. I know I need a new psychologist but money is tight
Every night before bed I self harm it helps me its a really bad old habit. I feel numb, cold and angry with the world. I dont tell any one this how can I.
I have night mares that are so vivid I wake up in a sweat or i wake up screaming. My PTSD is taking over me.
I have my dad near me but I cant tell him this. I dont know how to.
My whole life that I once new is gone. My friends my family my horse my country life. My daughters life too has gone. She hasn't been coping and trying to help her cope while I'm not even coping is a lot
I dont know what im asking but how do I talk to someone about this. How do I get the help I need.
How do I ask for help
How do I ask for help
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Oh no, so you moved away from your mum back to your dad again?
Because you weren’t happy there, but now you aren’t happy here.
I’ll say it again, you need to deal with what’s going on with you, no man, no place, no family, no study/course can help you.
Changing the scenery won’t change what’s going on inside of you.
You need to get to the gp, get a free mental health plan.
Hopefully they will connect you with community mental health, ongoing services, because you really need them.
Your daughter needs stability, she needs her mum healthy, you really need to do this and commit to it.
You need to set roots down, commit to your recovery, your daughters treatment and making a life for your daughter.
Good luck.
Please talk to your Dad. I think you might be surprised at how supportive he will be. I was in a similar situation this year, completely depressed, broken and unable to work due to my breakdown. Only when I shared this with my parents that I have had the support I've needed to work through one day at a time. Bare in mind, I sent the details via a message explaining I couldn't call because I was too ashamed. It broke the ice and their support has been wonderful. During these times, the situation our mind creates for us and how it actually is are worlds apart. Be gentle with yourself. You are doing great mumma. See your GP for help too and perhaps reach out again via the page with your location so some of the Mums can volunteer for you to reach out to them. We are all here for you cheering you on. Biggest hugs xx
Step 1 aknowledge there is an issue step 2 ask for help. Mental health plan at doctors. Effexor was the one medication that really helped me and my anxiety. Also talking to a psychologist, and yoga/meditation. Start seeking help TODAY dont hold off any longer, time to start moving forward.