A little background married over a year been together for 7 years, two beautiful children and a husband i love to death.
Cant help but feel like i hate my life, i hate that im fat, i hate that i eat disgusting, i hate that i eat terrible and am passing down bad habits to my children, i hate that my husband never helps but blames me for bad sleeping habits or bad behavior from the kids, i hate that my husband is so so selfish, i hate that my children dont sleep in there own beds, i hate breastfeeding. I hate what i look like.i hate that i am always angry or sad or tired. I really hate that i dont know what i want to do in life career wise when the kids are old enough, I flat out HATE my life. But do i? I dont know anymore i feel like i am numb to life, i am grateful for my life and i love my family i constantly feel like I am on auto pilot.
Is this what being a parent is??? Cause if this it i want out
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Go to your GP. If you are numb it could be depression. It might not be, but you should get it ruled out. I find when I'm feeling fed up if I just set one goal, just one and follow through on it I feel so much better. With out knowing any details of why you are breast feeding, why don't you just stop. Seriously, if you don't enjoy it, don't do it. Whack that baby on the bottle and take one thing you don't like away. When you start to see some changes things seem so much better, but if you make no changes then…..
It's like you were in my head. I feel exactly the same. You are not alone! Xoxo
First of all, does your husband work? If so, this is probably why he is "lazy" .. I work full time and come home to kids and its bloody hard. Secondly, chuck all of the crap out of your fridge and cupboard. If your kids are full on, its probably because they are not eating properly. People say eating healthy is too expensive. IT DOESNT HAVE TO BE. Go buy a shit load of fruit from coles or your local market. Stock up on chicken breast, fresh salad and fruit. Start walking even if its only 1km. If you dont like breast feeding, then STOP BREASTFEEDING! put your kids in their own bed. You make up your own life.