Hi Sister/Mummyhood...
I think I may be suffering from some sort of depression...either that or this mum life thing is meant to feel lonely, repetitive, unmotivating & just exhausting. I guess I just need to know whether how I feel is "normal" or not.
Background - I'm a mid 20's mummy of a school age, kindy age & newborn. I'm also a wifey to an amazing man. I'm currently on maternity leave from my part time job & hubby works full time. I don't have any family close by & the few friends I have either live too far away or work full time.
I feel like I've lost the ability to have fun or be happy. I love my children more than anything, but I find myself trying to avoid them & not wanting to play with them. If they ask me to play or draw or anything with them, I will make up an excuse of having to do laundry or wash up or vacuum etc. Right now my oldest 2 are in the pool & I'm sitting on the outdoor lounge with the baby not wanting to join in with their games because I'm too tired. We will occasionally bake, do a puzzle, read books, run around together...but I feel like that's something I "have" to do with them, as opposed to "wanting" to spend the time with them. I feel like I'm always grumpy or getting mad at them & that makes me sad. I need a hobby to break the repetition of everyday life, but I don't even know what I like.
I've brought this up with hubby numerous times about the way I feel & he tells me it's normal & I'm not depressed. I don't know though & I'm too scared to bring it up with my GP. I don't want to be seen differently...I'm meant to be the strong one.
What does the sister/mummyhood think? Are we all just constantly fatigued & "not fun"? Or is this something more?
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You probably are experiencing post natal depression. Tell your gp that you are feeling a bit low and that you would like to be referred to a councilor and alao try some medication. Its not something to be ashamed of, many people experience pnd.