I was wondering if anyone else went through a traumatic conception (rape) and how you came to terms with it? Especially to go on and have more children
I was drugged and raped by a so called 'friend' while celebrating new years. I can't remember the night.
I found out I was pregnant 6weeks later and just went downhill from there.
Regularly being told that it was my fault, that I deserved it, and that I should move in with the father because it was my fault.
I struggled with my feelings for my daughter until I held her then it was just love.
I developed post natal depression and severe anxiety leading to attacks where I couldn't even look at my daughter nor could I be left at home alone.
Currently seeing a psychologist who has helped a whole lot but I'm still struggling with a desire to have more kids but a fear of my previous pregnancy.
(Also have an extremely supportive and sweet new partner)
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