I know only a doctor can diagnose but I need advice :(
I think my baby is absolutely adorable and try really hard but I almost never feel like a mother. I feel like a nanny looking after someone else's cute baby. He doesn't feel like mine. I am always terrified of him dying or getting hurt but then I ask myself if it would be so bad if he was gone? I'd have my life back. Then I feel like the worst mother in the whole world. I would never EVER hurt my baby but if someone trustworthy took my baby and looked after him I don't know how much I would miss him.
I don't feel sad though. I feel fairly happy just get more overwhelmed than usual if things don't right and I just don't always feel a connection with my son :(
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It may not me, but please speak to your GP. They can help either way.
I felt like that too at first, you know what I think it is, the responsibility of being a mum. As time went on, my child became an actual person, not just a baby and our relationship grew. I think it def could be a sign of pnd, looking back now, the bonding took me quite a while. I will say now, I absolutely adore my kids and have such a strong bond, I think it takes some of us longer to adjust to our new roles as mothers.
I felt like that, and it got worse. It took me 3 months to seek help.
And now I'm so much better, and am no longer scared my daughter will die or get hurt in my career. We actually have a bond that i can see my self.
My Daughter is a year old now and I'm finally happy again. I love my daughter so much.
Seek help from your gp or community nurse. They will help you so so much.