I have 2 children, my 5yr screams for my attention and my 2yr has behaviour issues.
But both never ever give me down time.
I can't slip out the back for a cigarette or even go to the toilet without them both in my face.
Go for a drive, which ends up with my 2yr screaming the whole time even with screens in the car.
I sit down with miss 5yr but there's only a certain amount of colouring, reading & playing a adult can do in a 24hr period.
But when I get up to clean/prepare food she's literally hanging from me.
Mr 2 hates me, I swear to god.
But will scream bashing his head against the doors/floor/windows if I'm ever out of the room.
At the supermarket today I have just realised that I am at breaking point.
I think at the drop of a hat I will just burst out in tears.
I don't know what todo...
I'm so emotionally broken...
No help from dad he left us 2 years ago never to be seen again...
I work, but not enough...
It's the only place were you will catch me with a smile on my face...
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Sounds like you may have depression ehich can really cause a bad rut that the kids just bring you down more & its so hard to get out of.
Canyou pick up extra days at work? When im all day with mine its not fun too. Some days are ok, sometimes Im done by 10am and its a long hard day.
Where are you located ? I can totally relate to how you feel. Do you have any girlfriends or anyone else for support ?
I know how you feel.
Some days, I can remember that they love me, and I am the centre of their world. Others I just want to scream at them to leave me alone for 5 seconds, and EVERYTHING they do irritates me.
We've just moved to a really small house, and there is nowhere I can go to get away from them. In our old house, we had a baby gate. It created a psychological barrier. I could escape for 5 minutes without them flipping out (3 & 5). I could go to the toilet. Here, they lose the plot of I ask them to go to another room.
It's ok to shut the door. It's ok to put headphones on for 5 minutes. Sometimes I just lie on the floor and let them climb over me. I can close my eyes and just think. They are happy cause they can touch me. 😂