Hey mum’s
I’m not really looking for advice I’d just like needing a rant and a real effing cry where someone will listen.
I’m a single mum, solo mum, and I feel like an absolute failure, this year I lost my mum and that’s absolutely guttered me. I have no support and no help now she’s gone. My family only care about my dad and my brother but I’m apparently fine. I’m not!
Then recently I lost a large sum of money in cards for Xmas for my child and I just can’t forgive myself for it, he will now have yet another shit Christmas and this time it’s all my fault!! :(
Sometimes I think he’d be so much better without me!
Plus on top of that I’m not sure if my landlord will keep us on living here since I said a few months ago I didn’t want to extend my lease after my mum died but now I do. While I’m waiting for a reply to my email I will have until the 10th of December to find something and that won’t happen
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I'm sure your landlord will be ok to extend the lease if they were just going to start another anyway. Why don't you look to your brother and Dad for emotional support? You're all feeling the loss of your Mum, nobody will understand what you're going through more than them. It will get better, you're not a failure at all. If you can't afford Christmas now you could look at getting help from a charity?
You've had a pretty shit run of things lately, it's hard when you feel like you have no support xx
I expect your landlord will renew your lease (these things take time - my landlord certainly doesn't hurry), it will be much easier for them to keep you than to let you go and have to worry about finding new tenants etc because they lose money for as long as the property is vacant.
In terms of Christmas, do you know what my most treasured memories are? Eating yummy food and being with my family, the excitement on Christmas Eve watching Christmas movies with my mum and brother and our other yearly traditions. I don't really remember what 'stuff' I got (it was never very much anyway - I was raised by a single mum, I never resented her for never getting fancy gifts either because we had other ways of making it special). I'm sure your son won't think it's shit, don't be too hard on yourself. Reach out to some charity organizations, they are there to help. They'll be able to help with xmas hampers and ensure you have something to put under the tree for your son.
I hope things start looking up for you soon hun, take care!