I’ve just recently had my second baby (12 year gap in between) and I am feeling lost - not in being a Mum and the Mum duties but feel like I’ve lost myself somewhere... I love my family so much and they are my whole reason for everything. My partner is amazing and works so hard for us and that makes me love him and appreciate him even more. My new baby is such a good baby and I love him so much.
I get jealous when my partner gets invited to his mates for drinks, and I get on my high horse and say I don’t want him to go (and he wasn’t even going to go in the first place). I have lost some of my friends as their kids are older and I’m busy with Bub so not as readily available for girls nights or impromptu drinking sessions.
Lastly I feel like I don’t want to go back to my office job after my maternity leave is finished. I want to study and make something of my life, but I’m worried we cannot afford for me to study.
I feel like this is all over the place as I’ve asked many questions here and not just stayed on the one topic.
I don’t know why I feel like this as I honestly have a great life, family and extended family.
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Post natal depression maybe? Go and tell ur gp how u feel and see a psychologist
I think we all get to an age where we look around and go “WTH what am I doing, what’s the purpose” and have a very unsettled feeling. Some move on faster than others and some of us need to chat it out with a counsellor or support person. I got to 37 and just could not face another day in the corporate world I was in. I loved my family and wanted to do everything to put them first. It was a huge change from the career focused person I was. My friendship group changed, my priorities changed, and my partner had to be very patient with me.
Sounds like you’ve got an amazing partner. Talk to him. Really talk to him. Together you can come up with a lan to help you feel like you again and maybe it will be a new you.