Looking for some support and a sympathetic ear

*UPDATE *

Hello again sisterhood, I appreciate all the comments of support in my last post, for everyone who commented asking for an update here it is;
My post is very long so I appreciate anyone who is willing to read the whole lot, even if you have comment. Thank you for being such an amazing supportive system for me ♥️
My previous post is attached to my updated response

my mental and physical health haven’t improved much since I made this post, all of my tests returned negative for cervical cancer (thank goodness) but still no answers as to what is going on with my body. I’m off the wait list to see the psychiatrist but my first appointment isn’t until the first week of May which is still extremely far away.
My relationship with my partner has gotten worse, it’s started to become physical (and I’m ashamed to say, On both ends), I have been in contact with Orange Door and other support services, I’ve only just started the in take process with them, still a long way to go yet but I’m starting to feel hopeful.
Im still struggling with my childrens behaviour but have started putting rules and other strategies in place to help deal with that.
Thank you so much to everyone who commented and showed me so much support, I absolutely love and cherish this community ♥️
Thank you *

Hello Sisterhood,

I just need support from fellow mothers.

I’m really struggling at the moment, my mental health as well as my physical health are in shambles at the moment, I have depression and anxiety, and am currently awaiting some test results for cervical cancer ( it runs in my family and I’ve been having common symptoms for a while, finally went to the doctor and was rushed off for extensive testing, now I’m just waiting for results, the waiting is killing me) I have no friends close by and I cut ties with my family a long time ago due to their toxicity. I have two kids under the age of six, my oldest is combined ADHD and ASD, I struggle to connect with him daily, everyday is a fight no matter how I approach it, and my youngest just copies his behaviours even though she’s been tested and doesn’t have a diagnosis . My husband is no help with the kids. He just leaves it to me to deal with because he can’t/ doesn’t want too handle them. He says he’s being supportive with this whole cancer scare but all he’s done in all honesty has made me feel so guilty about being scared, being distracted and not feeling in the mood to be intimate with him.

I feel like I have the whole world on my shoulders and I’m breaking under the pressure

I feel so alone and lost. I just want someone to be there for me without making me feel worse.

If you’ve read this, I appreciate it ♥️