I gave him my best years. The years I looked and felt my best. My carefree years. My happy years. My enthusiastic successful years. My years I was beautiful and on top of the world.
I thought I was in love. He fooled me to believe he loved me. It took more years than I care to admit, but he wore me down and out. He slowly wore me down until I had nothing left. Now I look in the mirror, and an old ugly unhappy woman looks back at me. So much so that no one will ever want me again. He took every bit of happiness I had. I wish I could go back in time so that I could tell myself just to run!
After all these years, I just wish I could be really and truly loved.
I gave him my best years
I gave him my best years
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I was there but I did not stay there. I was becoming someone on the other side of that toxic relationship. I started rebuilding, finding ways to feel better about me by getting out and exploring new things. Do not stay there and allow him to take the rest of your life too. Make the rest, yours. I look back now and feel like those initial years of learning to finally appreciate and love me, without needing external validation, were the best years of my life. X
It's kind of a shallow way of looking at it.
You might not be as youthful as you used to be (beauty is subjective), but I'm sure you're smarter, wiser, probably further along in your career, less selfish, more caring, more mature, have life experience that will make you a better partner in the future.
You can be happy again, no-one can take that away from you, it's yours, if you choose it.
Carefree? Well, I don't think anyone of us are as carefree as we were pre kids and never will be!
However, as those kids grow, we do become more carefree again, but will always worry about them.
You're right, none of the good ones will want you at the moment, because of your negative mindset.
Only the ones that are looking for someone down to push further down will want you.
You need to be single, find your happiness, appreciate all you have, find your old self again, but a better, wiser, more mature version.
You've got this lovely, so when you're ready to join the living, the world is waiting for you.
The world is an exciting place, you just can't see it at the moment xxx
Your best years are yet to come :)