It hurts so much. It hurts thinking about how he treated me for so long. It hurts how much he disrespected me. It hurts. You know what hurts the most, realising that after you gave him decades of your life, he never ever loved you. What hurt the most was laying beside him crying uncontrollably and he enjoyed seeing me like that. What hurt the most is never getting all the years back that I wasted on him. What hurts me the most is I have no where else to go and I’m stuck here. I cry so much that I can feel my heart break….he’s got not a care in the world.
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What's something nice you can do tomorrow? Phone a friend? Go for a walk?
It sounds like he has finally stopped wasting your time... So remind yourself that this is a new beginning where you can get what you deserve
I feel this in my bones and I’m so sorry for you going through this. 😭
Please be kind and gentle to yourself. Ring a friend, get your support crew, go for walks, fresh air and ocean swims are actually the best. Speak up that you’re not ok and get your girls around you.
You will one day be ok and so much happier than now. Good luck to you xx
Hey anonymous, Kelly here from The Imperfect Mum team.
Big hugs for what you went through. Please do reach out and contact the professionals if you are in Australia. They will help you heal and know best.
Much love xKelly
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i feel as though i could have written this . My only advice is try and take urself back . Dont concentrate on what you dont have now or what you missed out on . Try to only look forward maybe only a minute at a time but always forward .