I would like nothing more than to completely cut you out of my life.
To never have to deal with your narcissistic behavior and your selfish attitude. I would prefer to never look at you again, nor pray that one day you might step up and be actually decent.
You are toxic to my life and when I don't have to involve you, talk to you or look at you, I am the most happiest.
I wish I could move forward. But you choose to be a nasty, selfish and aggressive human being.. When I am at my best, your drag me back down... And there is nothing I can do about it...... You blame me for your choices and decisions..
I have to put up with your indecent bullying behavior. This angers me and saddens me... All those years together... What happened to you? Where did you go? But I do my best to hold my tongue... I sometimes slip and say only a half of what I need.. In hope you come to a realization. But I have false hope... I know that now... But what can I do.. I am alone... I am scared... I put my brave face on and brace myself every fortnight.... I have no choice, I do it ...
for our son..
Breath and release...... (No ?).
Breath and release...... (No ?).
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*hug* so well written. They get nastier when you try to stand up to them too or get out from under them. Its huge getting away
I could have written this myself! Almost word for word!! Although I am not 'alone' I was lucky to meet my amazing man, to get married and have had 3 more children. But it is still hard and more often than not a battle to keep getting up everyday knowing that there will be some drama come about because my ex is an arsehole who cares only for himself and the demands placed on him by his now wife.