Hey I.Ms
I'm sitting here with tears in my eyes as I type this. I'm a mum to a 3 yr old. And lately I have been feeling like the worst mum.
When I think back to when my child was born I feel so guilty I feel like I was not there for them 110% like I should have been. I only breastfeed for 2 weeks because I was that anxious and scared they weren't getting enough milk. All I did was cry thinking about having to get up thru the night ect.
Fast forward to now. I'm always yelling or losing my shit over nothing really and I feel so terribly guilty but I don't know how to stop.
I lash out on my husband and he doesn't deserve it.
When I think about my life I get overwhelmed quiet easily and tear up. I would never leave or anything like that.
I guess what I'm looking for is someone to say Yep I've been thru this!?
Was it depression?
How did you learn to control these outbursts and feelings?
I love my family but I hate this person I have become.
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I think we have all been in the place where we aren't behaving or feeling the way we imagined or even should. The best thing to do is to make a long appointment with your GP to discuss how you've been feeling. He should refer you to see a mental health professional who can help you work through strategies so you can get back on track. The DR may also prescribe medication if he/she thinks it is appropriate. Good luck, you can start to feel better x
I swear I could have written this, I am going through the same thing right now :( I hope you get to the bottom of it. Good luck xx
yes Ive been through this. I have 3 kids under 4, buy and loud household I feel like pulling my hair out, I don't smoke anymore (which used to give me that 5 min breather) and Ive never been a drinker, so what I do I when I can go down town and run errands on my own. and go shopping on my own, taking my time.
unfortunately on occasion, I feel like I just want to hit the hwy and keep driving. go until I run out of petrol.
you aren't alone mummy, sometimes its not depression, people seem to go straight to a mental illness if your not like everyone else who has a 'perfect' mentality. for me its just stress, I get so overwhelmed and just want some peace and quiet. little things will help you feel better.
ps. I also suggest that when you have a week where you feel like all you've done is yell at your little one, organise an activity for you two to connect again. although children love unconditionally, sometimes they just need some positive attention. even if you just take her to the park or in this weather the pool. connect again and have a good chat :) xx
omgoodness you are a human being. You are normal!! I went to triple p pratctioneing because I was loosing my temper at my 3 yr old who was destroying my house and my life. I was a single mum with child care experience but no course can explain what should happen after day care closes and you have to come home and deal with their constant questions attitude and defiance 24/7. Then u have a partner to deal with...half the time they are worse!!!! The most I got from triple p is everyone experiences times of failure and if you didn't you're not doing it right. I am a qualified triple p practitioner now but by no means do I find myself fully qualified to tell you how to raise your child. Every child is different. What I can offer is that what you are experiencing and acknowledging is normal for a very loving parent. How you get through it is up to you. seek professional help at your. local hospital or drs surgery or child Health nurse. dont be scared just know that many women are their to help you if you only ask.