Think I've just had my first ever panic attack??
Please no judgement..
My son has just turned 1 and the last couple of weeks I've started to feel a bit under the weather. Just not myself. I'm constantly tired and I've been waking up on the mornings just wishing I didn't have to be a parent.
It wasn't until just now I'm laying in bed thinking about all the things that are stressing me out that something from my past has come up and caused me to have a panic attack.
A few years ago (maybe 2-3yrs) I was stupidly texting a guy while my partner and I went through a rough patch. My partner found out after he saw the messages and confronted me about it. I deleted all messages and he asked me to be completely honest with him and asked if that's all I sent. I said yes cause I was scared. I had actually sent more pictures and even videos.
Since this has all happened I have become better at communicating with my partner and we have moved past this horrible thing. I feel so bad for the pain I caused him and would never even think about going there or doing it to him ever again. I actually feel heartache when I think about how it must have made him feel.
But the fact that I didn't tell him all of it I think is starting to eat me up inside.
We are getting married in March and I'm lost for what to do?
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OK if you did have a panic attack it is important to see your GP for a mental health care plan. The thing with panic attacks is they can build momentum, so you end up having panic attacks about the possibility of having a panic attack.
So although this might be situational it might not be, sometimes our brain makes up things to be panicked about so that we can justify out panic attack.
Anyway off to the doctor, its probably not a bad idea to ask to see a counsellor or similar so you can talk about what's going on a decide on what you are going to do. But my advice, don't tell your partner yet, discuss with your counsellor first.
psychologist is the best place to start they can help you put it all straight in your head and even give you tools to help reduce any symptoms....if it is panic attacks its the place to start and they can help you figure out if they are