was just wondering if anyone has been through sexual assult charges... i was abused by my uncle around about 16 not actually sex i know it probably sounds silly but im so scared that finally after ruffly 9 years im finally willing to come forward legally and its not going to be enough... i can remember 2 times but i shut off so bad i cant remember him actually leaving the room no matter how hard i try so im not sure if it went any further.. but it went from me doing everything with him looking up to him like my dad than all i remember is being petrified of him and i cant remember why.. since speaking about it i keep just feeling like something happened around the time i was about grade 4... one night b4 going to work he came and kissed me.. the next day my aunty asked why he didn't wake her up to say goodbye and he said he did (me) but i dont see anyway possible he could mistake a little girl for his wife.. than around that time i was diagnosed with epilepsy which people say can come on when a brain can't cope.. i swear he is the reason and every part of me is saying im forgetting something big.. ive been thinking about it lately when i try to go to sleep and i wake up like ive had like an anexity nightmare but i normally remember them and i wake up shaking that bad its like a fit so its like im rembering in my sleep but my brain cant deal with it.. so just wondering has anyone experienced something similar and have gotten rid of the block... i never felt like i need to go legally i just wanted to ruin his image.. but since coming forward about 2 years ago after my first child was born because i could never sit buy and think he or future children could cop the samething i basically got treated like ive done the wrong thing.. now living almost 14 hours away from there gaze i don't feel that i was my fault and something has just snapped in me and i want to go in the legal direction... i can't leave my babies with anyone without having anexity attacks... which i had an emergency c section with my little girl and my partner worked so my little boy had to go to daycare and it almost killed me at the start than i saw how happy he was so i felt a little better till he had an off morning and it sent my anexity sky high. to a normal person they would just think what it was an off day but i had a million questions in my head.. i hate doing this to my babies but ever since coming out its everywhere and normally the person you least expect... and for that i want him to pay i want his life to suck forever i want him to have a shadow like i always will and the thing that makes me sick the most is theres little kids there all the time i just need to know I've done everything in my power to not let it happen again... so if anyone could pass on any advice it would be muchly appreciated... also how do i stop hating my mum and feeling like i blame her all we ever do when i was around her was fight my partner said the other day tell her you blame her but how do you blame someone for it (i used to beg and beg not to go there)
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my mother prosecuted her father for abuse. the process of recall took the better part of a decade. be aware that there is a statute of limitations on such offences in most states. he did 2 years and 3 months and when released from prison he was transferred sideways into a dementia ward where he died. for raping his own daughter from the age of 3 til the age of 18....she was 42 when he was convicted. the truth is recall usually occurs naturally progressively from about 25-30 years afterward.....if its going to happen...if its forced its BAD ok.....iv seen it first hand, the worst case of PTSD the NT had ever seen.
she once walked the better part of the way from the Hospital (casuarina, northern suburbs of Darwin) to Katherine just counting her steps to keep the flash backs and thoughts at bay......
https://www.google.com.au/maps/dir/Casuarina+NT/Katherine+NT/
I am telling you right now...don't force it, go and get some counselling contact your local sexual assault center. google is the best place to find them or call https://www.1800respect.org.au/
the truth is she was vilified by her family for coming forward for over a decade. even though she was far from being his only victim....even his other victims attacked her for coming forward. the only person to stand with her was her foster brother, not even her own siblings even though their eldest brother had suicided before he reached 30.
but do not push that wall particularly NOT without the help of a professional...
my mother was forced to confront him by a forensic psychologist who was more interested in researching his criminality than her welfare, she ended up admitted to the psych ward for 10 whole years with barely day leave.....during which she tried to suicide every time...don't put your kids through that, get help before it gets that bad.
I would also suggest getting professional help from a sexual assault specialist. I wouldn't rule out seeing a psychiatrist to help you with the feelings of anxiety etc as well.
Good luck whatever you decide to do
Oh you lay charges by contacting the police, their sexual assault unit.
She had 4 false starts where she would go to the police station and be told to come back later.......she only came back later after the 4th attempt with the help of her nurses and psychologist.....every other time she was recovering from an overdose in ICU when later arrived.
I think they have changed their policy now and have an officer available to take statements 24/7 but don't take that as a guarentee after what happened to mum she gave quite a few talks to rooms of numerous police officers and senior officers from around the country about what she had had to go through to make a statement due to their office hours and what time they had officers available.
She was a police advisor for quite a number of years after she recovered. And their public spokesperson for operation chameleon early last decade.