Court in 7 days - the ending

To all the ladies who asked for an update. I think I am ready to talk about it now, for those of your that remember my post. For those that don't here is a link.

Questions: EDIT: Court in 7 days

I got to court feeling it would be better not being alive right now than having all this Adrenlin and nevers running around in me.
We had been waiting almost 12 mk the for the Catholic education to subpoena In the documention of the investigation my ex underwent from complaint by not just me but many others.
My ex once he new we were giving these that day tried to bargen, he has never do that before. Hence why more and more adjournments. He wanted a 1 and 1 IVO on both of use. I said no. He then offered 5 each.
I said no. Because I have faught this man for 2 years. He has tracked down my daughters father and asked him to be a whittess for him in court. He was on webex waiting that day to say his piece. It was a sick feeling. So told the magistrate I want a trail today. They dont know they new me. They only know the week little girl I was
I got up in that stand and I told them everything. He wouldn't stop staring at me. If looks could kill, that's the look he was staring at me with.
My baby was brought up, I had a termination after everything went down. I was cross examined and they said I didn't have a heart that I shouldn't have done that with out his permission. I took his right away to be a father. That made me so angry. He took mine and my other child's right to feel safe. I got to looknat him and say you told me, when you broke into my house, uninvited and saw me self harming, you told me "your are pathetic. You told me you made a mistake and you don't want to be a dad and get an abortion. You really really hurt me that day. I didn't take away your rights, you did"! And we know why now, cause you were also trying for a baby with your other 2 year relationship.
While I was talking he was sitting writing notes.
I was given paper work (complaint to the medical board againts my psychologist) from on of his new girlfriends (he brought both to court btw) but wouldn't let them in the trail room
It started in there thag I have a long known well documented history of BPD. That I have lied to my psychologist and she has been manipulated by me as that is what BPD people too. They act erratic like this girl has and is right now. This has been know about this girl for years and she refuses to her help.
She states there is a voice message I left my ex starting I was going home to self harm and it will be played in court. This shows her erratic behaviour and why my friend came to her house, he was rescuing her
I DONT have BPD and never have. My barrister said this is defamation. I feel like I need to write this girlfriend a letter from my lawyer warning her to never say such things about me again.
The Catholic edition reapot was horrible. All those kids he bullies and put down was Disgusting. It wasn't just my child. I will never regret reporting him to his principal. He lost his job in the Catholic education but.... he is now a DP in a state school, possibly hurting more kids. I was only given 10 pages of the paper work not that whole big folder that there was.
I told the magistrate how scared I am of this an over and over again. I told them that he contacted my child's dad. They we moved interstate to be free. I don't ask for child support as he doesn't ask to see his daughter (she's almost 9). This is and still is the worst thing he did. He broke me by letting this man I once loved and had to leave everything that has happened in our lives since. It was a very calluses thing to do.
Well the time came for this voice message.
I had driven to his house (pregnant woth HG) after be begged me to come to his thay night as he was sad his mother was dying. Kept saying i dont love him..i was in deep the the gaslighting etc at this point. And I did. I knocked on the door and he wasn't home! But he wanted me there so desperately. I called and called. I was in a panic. I was in his abusive spell. So I text and text where are you.
I left that said voice message that night.
He responded "fuck off, I don't want you, your not someone I want to talk about with mum, I've gone to someone's house who loves amd cares for me. You don't do that"
It KILLED me
I went home and self harmed in the shower that night. I did was to die. I was low
That voice message was then played. I was sobbing in it. Begging him to talk to me. Begging him to tell me why he hates me so much. Begging him to stop hurting me. Telling him I hate my self for ever letting anyone treat me and my child the way he does and now the baby I'm pregnant with.
My barrister stood and said to him. You arenothing buy a lier. You didn't break in to save Heidi. She didn't say she was going home to self harm you only know that came you are a creap who breaks into people's house and watches them in the shower to they notice.
And if you cared why didn't you call and ambulance.
I told them about him throwing the lawn more across the year, couldn't of hit my daughter. Hoe he threw keys at my face. How he called me a slut at time. He was so mean to me. Every time I left. He would come back, mask on.

Then I was his turn
I've always read about narcissist putting on a show, owning a room. He played the part well. It was actually incredible to watch. He even had a written speech. He start off, I am a very wonderful person. She is a wonderful months..I take my hat off to her raising her so well on her own and getting all the diagnosis she has at such a young age.
He admitted everything. He admitted he was stood down as Principle 5 years back as he did wrong things to children and mothers. And I've been on the book since. He didn't deny one thing
He told me in the end he had to be so strict on my child's poor behaviour as she was hitting me hard in the stomach and he felt it could of killed the baby. That I refused to get her help sohe had to step in (this is where the abuse report comes into it)
He brought up the self harm night. Said he came over cause was concerned. My front door was left wide open. He came in and saw me sitting at the table thighs cut so very deep, but she was been banging her head on the table. It was completely spilt open. There was blood everywhere like a scene.
He didn't call an ambulance as I asked him not to... he made me a cuppa and put me to bed.
What about all that blood I'm thinking. He had to mentally abuse my child cause she hitting me in the stomach. I'm pretty sure this scene he has Patride is far worse than if a child was hitting me for the baby's sake..
The lies went on. Try to defame my poor father. Saying he abused me as a child and he had to help me over come my childhood trauma. All lies. Said he also had to protect my child, my dad was telling her she is going to hell cause she was born out of wedlock. It was so hard for my dad to hear thag, he is a kid calm soul.
They just kept coming lies after lies.
Said I just abuse me, it's who I am. Said my daughters dad is waiting to be called into the witness stand. At that point I was numb. How dare he get involved. But the magistrate wouldn't allow it
He was told off a few times by the magistrate for being in polite to my barrister.
He told the courts that when I met his now ex, the lady he to was with at the same as me trying to get us both pregnant, that we plotted to ruin his life. She called him apparently and said "we are going to ruin your life". Funny how i was a phone call and he has no proof. He received a penis shapped chocolate in the mail, the card said eat a dick. It was tendered. He said he took it as a slap from that girl after what he dad done.
But when I contacted his principal that took.it to far. He had to act and that is why he took an order out on me and not the other girl.
My barrister said, can't you see what you did to those girls, you have them false hope of a family, you lied and hurt their children. He manipulated them. What did you think you were just going to walk away like a Man. You were committing FV to them every day.

To finish his speech of lies, I have to live with that I have done every day to those two women and I think that is enough punishment for me.
What about me and my child, what we have to live with everyday.

We had to wait 5 weeks for an outcome

The magistrate started talking to me. And she told me I am a family violence perpetrator..if I'm a family violence perpetrator for letting a school know that they have a man working for them that harms children I do not care! She also believes that me and the other women did campaign to ruin our exs life, again perpetratoring FV.
The she went onto him. Told him he was lucky, LUCKY, that by contacting my daughters dad that we both weren't hurt. But what if he were.
He told him he has perpetratored family violence there and aslo for breaking into my house 2 times.
Then.... I also take into consideration of H*****'s poor mental health for the way she acted/has acted.
This ruined me for week. I keep a full time job. I raise a child with special needs full time. We are aslo studying Auslan. I also take care of 2 large dogs. Oh and have been to court 26 times in 28 months. How do I have poor mental health

So that is the update.

While my court matter was on. There was a matter on down stairs. A man who k**** his friend, she had a IVO on him to

And this magistrate just didn't care what this man did to me and my daughter. She didn't take into consideration my daughters play therapist reports or anything.

I didn't get any justice. And I feel like I really needed it.
In court he was talking about my child's father and states "the alleged father" of her child
So I think this is my justice. My new journey now I'm so strong and not that little 21 year old, it's time to have him admit he is the dad.
Maybe even time to pay child support. That I didn't leave him cause I had an affair and fell pregnant to someone else. At that time I let him spread those rumours cause I wanted to cross the border and stay. And I have for 9 years. He can't move her back now.
So why should I be silence again. He came back in my life to try and have another stab at me. I feel like it is time for him to man up. My child has a right to know who her dad is. And she has a right for him to stop telling everyone she isn't. He now has 4 kids (three women)..but everyone thinks he has 3.
I need my justice and so does my child.