Why? – I hear you say.
I realised it was nearing the end of July, we were heading into August.
August brings with it a lot of pain. – For me.
It’s a month I would rather skip.
That way I don’t have to feel the pain.
The pain knowing that I will never celebrate your birthday with you.
Knowing I will never tuck you in at night.
Knowing I will never touch you again.
Knowing I will never cry at your 21st.
Knowing I will never see you get married.
Knowing I will never scold you for being a naughty boy.
Knowing I will never tell you things will be alright.
I miss you so much that sometimes it’s hard for me to breathe.
So many silent tears make their way down my cheeks.
August, I don’t want you to arrive.
I don’t want to feel the pain.
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I understand that pain well.. though for me it's January. Big hugs hun.. xo
Thanks darl, hugs to you for January. Xx
I can only imagine Kristy....and it makes me shudder just to do that.
No words, just the hope that you can celebrate his life amidst your grief - even if it is with buckets of salty tears filled with love xx
Kirri, thank you my beautiful dear friend. Your words mean so much. Xx
Oh Hun :-(....Thinking of you and Sending lots of love and hugs XXXXX
Thanks darling girl xx
Sending love and strength to you for this difficult month. Sending kisses up to your angel, Happy Birthday ~Titan~ xx
Thanks Jane xx
Sending, hugs, kisses, love and strength. A pain uncompareable, unimaginable, unfair....thinking of you darlingxx
Thanks so much Liz xx
it's November for me! I feel your pain x
Hugs to you Nicole xx
Kirsty I wish there were magic words to say to you right now, but as there are not I send all my love, prayers and positive energy <3
I wish you peace and an August surrounded by love <3
Thank YOU Terri and sending you love also. Your husband would be a very proud man having a wife as amazing as you are. xx
I sit here and cry because I do not know your story but my heart breaks reading the above, I skipped to previous posts and seen your story about Titan <3 I dont know what to say but I am so so sorry. My heart breaks for anyone who has had to deal with this extreme loss. You are such a STRONG, INSPIRATIONAL woman!! I really dont know how some women cope, I like to think of myself as a strong person but I honestly think I would crumble in this situation. Sending so much love and hugs and strength to you at this unbearably hard, emotional time. To a woman I have not met but feel that I know, I wish I could hug you. Much love to you Mumma <3 <3 <3
Thanks so much Teneille, I really appreciate your beautiful kind words. xx
I cannot even begin to imagine, Im sorry.
Thank you Shontel. xx
I just lost my baby last week. I was 13 weeks and thought everything would be okay as I had a ten week scan (due to spotting) and the baby was perfect. When I went in at 13 weeks and heard those words - there is a problem, there is no hearbeat - it is like my world slowed down. The baby had just passed... around 12.5 weeks... You know that time when you can let everyone know because it is the safe period! I am still blessed with a little boy.. but in some ways I know what was lost because I know how this little thing inside me just burrowed into my heart. I never got to see or hold my baby as my body let me down and I did not deliver. Still I am trying to be strong and heal... but I know the pain will always be there.. I just have to count the blessings that I do have. I know your little man is growing up in spirit around you... he is never far. And my little girl (as I am sure she was) is with me...
ohhh :( Sending you and your little girl love! XX
August is also our month of pain :-( We lost our first pregnancy, our baby boy Olly at 17 weeks. Two years yesterday, the journey of multiple loss has been a massive learning curve of a ride. We have lived quite isolated and havent had the support of family so we truly appreciate your concept of support for everyone. Bless you for your kindness xox